Yo.

It’s been, a, week. A week.

A good one :).

I had a little bit of cynicism going into it, just because my mom coming to visit me in Leeds was prefaced with the usual contempt from the whole family about how im not excited enough and not showing enough emotion, which led me to believe it would be a couple of weeks worth of me just being emotionally drained and without any privacy, but I was FULLY wrong, which is awesome. If anything, it’s been extremely relaxing, for several reasons.

For one, and easily the most obvious, is the stuff I got. Right now, Im writing from the Lenovo Yoga slim, which so far I’ve been finding much more palatable in every regard than the M1 mac.

(just a heads up, if I ever said my mac was m2 in previous posts, than just know it was a slip up :p)

Technically speaking, you could make the argument that the laptop is worse than the m1 mac pro. Its performance, battery, the whole nine yards, is entirely less than the mac. Its a slim vs pro model after all. Honestly, it wouldnt even be my first choice for a laptop, not even for a second.

But despite that, maybe even because of that, I’m genuinely happier with this. I mean, the laptop was a gift, I was planning on buying used to begin with, but the fact that I didnt have to spend a penny to get this is already a crazy boon.

I could technically sell it, but itd be rude for the uncle who bought me it, so I probably wont. Plus, I cant be bothered :p.

But importantly, MOST importantly, even though its technically less strong, its still the better laptop. Wanna know why?

Say it with me know:

Apple, is, GARBAGE!

:D.

My god does the performance comparison not cut it. I can run games again on x86, I can change so many more settings, I can install all the linux distro’s that were unavailable on the new arm m series macs, I CAN STOP USING MAC’S OS.

GOD. GOOD GOD.

It’s not even close, its awesome. So far, I’ve got my files changed, and bought and downloaded minecraft. Its been ages. Im excited for that :).

Another item I finally got, my wired earphones, are so good to have back as well. Not AS good as the new laptop, but awesome n_n.

For the longest time I’ve had to put up with those garbage 7 pound wireless earphones from Cex, and its been horrible. Low battery life, stupid touch controls that go off when I dont want them to with no way to turn it off, garbage battery life and a beeping that stops the audio intermittently and yells in your ears for like 20 minutes if your under 10%, and now its OVER.

You just plug in the earphones and your DONE.

FUCK.

…Was it THAT HARD?

Idek x).

Admittedly, I have quite an expensive brand at the moment, that being the FIIO F-whatever the fuck I genuinely dont care because theyre lame as hell. Honestly, I have no idea what my dad sees in them.

Before them, I had the moondrop ARIA, a really stylish and nice sounding pair of earphones I ordered off aliexpress, but my dad accidentally broke them, so he gave me these as compensation (and since he wasnt REALLY using them anymore).

Its a fancy brand, and people talk it up (the youtuber he watched was glazing it crazy) but honestly the whole fiio lineup reeks of overpriced bullshit. To this day I would genuinely prefer the moondrop aria, both in sound quality and its much cooler and convenient usb-c cable, but im stuck with this now and im damn well not gonna waste money if I have them.

It is what it is ¯\(ツ)/¯.

I complain but I honestly have it really good since it also has the wireless casing, but its worth noting I suppose. The moondrop is way more bang for your buck, and I wouldnt bother paying so much.

But thanks anyways dad <3.

There’s also all the different stuff with me and my mom going out, getting clothes for fits has been fun (dont have any pics tbh put ill try and get some another time), grocery shopping and making meals, we stumbled by this multi long gaming event too and I got ARCHIE SONIC POSTERS.

LOOK

These are my favorite, left poster is cute and the second is really cool, love tails and amy in it <3.

Its also important that I point out that I really miss the old archie style. I think the new IDW comic style is great, it is, but prime archie had amazing art man. It was rougher initially, but it grew on the characters and the characters grew an archie design, it was lovely. I still see them that was to this day, especially sonic (v_v).

But anyways, its been really fun to go out and get stuff done. I even got a blanket finally!

I’ve sort of just sleeping with the blanket covers (;n_n).

But clearly, and I hope very evidently, I’ve been socializing more, especially with my mom now that I get to see her again.

We’ve been having coffee nearly every morning together, having fun talking about life, university and whatever miscellaneous topics, and enjoying our presence.

In the midst of that, she also (to my initial dismay) cleaned the whole house, and I helped her out with it. Over the course of the first two days, we did everything, starting with reorganizing my room and then cleaning the kitchen floor and surfaces, then finally vacuuming the carpets clean.

It made the house much more habitable, and much more cozy for us to relax. And on top of that, it opened the door for my roommates and I to socialize, with the help of the cleaning and a couple of group lunches my mom orchestrated, and yea, I hardly even know how to feel now

Initially, I felt a lot of resentment over everyone, especially one particular roommate that seemed to consistently step on my toes. We’ve been in arguments, theyve used my stuff wrong a lot, kept the kitchen dirty,

and it PISSED me off.

That, and the fact that we didnt have a meaningful single discussion since I moved in, basically doomed things. That, and I just wasnt willing to after the months of bs, all the anxious resentment.

But having started to talk with everyone, theyve all opened up so much. Especially them.

…

THEYRE SO NICE!

I genuinely couldnt believe it on the first meal my mom and I made for them, I WAS FLOORED, of everyone on the table, it isnt even that I fucked with them, THEYRE LITERALLY SO COOL.

IM BAFFLED.

And in just 2 or so discussions, all that resentment seems to have wittled away, as though it were never between us to begin with. Theyve told my mom they consider me really fun to talk to, they seem to really enjoy themselves too, and to think all this time I had been resentful. I even initially WAS on the first day after the discussion, despite how cool they were, knowing they were friends with the other roommates, it gave me mixed feeling, but then we talked again and they just GET IT.

Wow.

All it took was a kitchen clean and a meal or two, why didnt we do this sooner? All that fear, all that anxiousness, it really served no end, not even a little. Theyre not bothered, they dont see me as particularly weird or creepy, things are just good between everyone.

Its a learning lesson, I suppose. Its the best we can do from a situation like this. Not to hold resentment.

We really are all just people doing our best, given our circumstance. That applies regardless of old grudges. In hindsight, dumb grudges. Not that I wasnt right or wrong, that it was better to let go of it.

And yea, now we’re cool :0. Its surreal. My roommates, theyre really sweet, all of them. No joke.

I still gotta get back to the academic lock in of course, but shit’s good, life’s good.

And yea, that about sums up all I wanted to share for now. Im quite tired honestly. Its amazing what this week has been like, seeing the other side of my anxieties of a cashier and how useless they were is also quite fun, failed small talk is honestly kinda funny from this end, but I digress.

The bump on my head hurts and I need rest.

Before you go too though, consider man biting dog (the album)

https://youtu.be/yRHVbxsX4TQ?si=G9T7ZPKiA1VbgKLF

The visualizer came out a while ago, and the new transition from city to head up is fucking rad, and honestly such a perfect addition that puts the two tracks on a whole different level, check it the fuck out.

That’s all from me though, im gonna go listen to some 8485 and ninajirachi and then head to bed.

Enjoy your week though. Thanks for reading <3.