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HI.

Okay genuinely I dont know if it’s just been me this month by Im getting JUMPED, CHOKED I tell you.

I AM TIRED.

Uni is as stressful as it usually is, but there’s family, internships, house shenanigns volunteering and probably a society soon ITS TOO MUCH.

BUT.

but.

I get to sit down now n_n. Just write about it for a little bit. That’s always nice.

Ignore that it’s 2:05 AM while I write this, and that I have classes at 11 AM tomorrow, for my sake ~_~.

First off (and something I’ve been meaning to share for a while now):

Capybaras!

Im sure youve caught on by now but im pretty funny with adult money. First it was merch, then aliexpress, then B&M for the fun snacks, 2 Liter dr peppers and stuff, and last week I happened to pass by The Range, a home store with a bunch of stuff, and I found these little guys!

(ignore that all the stuff I mentioned don’t correlate, theyre all cool so it counts >:))

Theyre so damn squishable they’ve practically been keeping me alive.

Seriously O_O.

I dont know what it is with them, but ever since I bought them, my mood has unironically been better. I dont know what it is about them, guess using them as stress relief is doing SOMETHING right.

The left one is the one that’s seen the most use, as you could probably guess by his mouth. It sort of just flaked off the more I squished him, and today it fully vanished.

A couple of days ago it was doing an ellie smirk though, that was pretty funny

Anyways, I finally decided which club I’m gonna join first. Remember that from last post? WELL YEA, GUESS WHAT IT IS?

It’s the english club :).

Originally, I was thinking music or art or coding would be the club that I joined first, but the more that I sat on it the more I realized now wasnt the right time for either.

I WILL eventually, dont get it twisted, but I dont really have the time for it. Things are too hectic.

I want to fuck around in my own time a bit more before I take the plunge you know? I’m currently practicing my python for a freecodecamp certificate, and although im not really drawing or playing the piano at the moment I can only really attribute it to the fact that im getting BOMBARDED right now. I would if I could, and hopefully WILL since things are sure to calm down soon :p.

So, if that’s the case why exactly is the english club the exception might you ask?

Well, it’s a bit hard to say, but to put it plainly — it’s closer to my heart than I thought.

That doesnt really suffice as an answer though, right?

To give you the full lowdown, english has always been my favorite subject in school outside of programming, I loved it to bits. The literature, getting to read new books every couple of weeks, or the vocabular, just learning new words I can add to my everyday speech, and YES, EVEN GRAMMAR.

It wasnt ever that bad :v.

But ever since I graduated, that spot never really got filled, you know? I havent talked to anybody about a book the same way I’d talk to my old teachers in AGES, and YEA, it WAS that good, especially my second schools english teacher :).

We’d spend HOURS talking theme, ethics, maybe even divert into just our day to day lives. This teacher, ill call him Bee, was my MAN. I’d go to him for anything, even when I was just bored, and if he werent busy with work he’d always entertain it.

I enjoyed bee’s company, but more than that, I want to have that experience again. I realise that I can do THAT again, just with other people, NEW friends.

I can share my thoughts and engage in dumb ethics debates, I could meet new people, hell honestly the fact that I GET to read is nice enough right? Practically no downsides.

I think it’d be a fun way to socialise again, in a way I havent done in a long time. It’d also get me reading more, which is good for more reasons than just being literate, I’d probably write better too.

I mean really, I’ve been writing these posts for two years now (DAMN) but barely read anything, imagine how different things would have been if I had been reading more? Maybe I’d be a bit more verbose, but that’s not even what I’m getting at.

Language is ingenious. Honestly, you already know this, but it’s worth repeating. It’s kind of crazy that we take it for granted, but we can understand complex ideas with language, share ideas with language, share emotion with language,

and importantly — share ourselves with language.

I’m a diarist, this site is exactly that, a distillation of my week to week through text. Hundreds of thousands of ASCII characters given form. I share myself through this, in a way even other art forms might struggle to convey.

So why not cherish it a bit more?

Right now, I feel as though I’m a tad isolated, metaphorically speaking. A small island in the middle of nowhere, making stuff online. But why not build bridges, see new islands?

It’s the type of thing where the more you explore, the more you learn and the more you get of YOU. The more I read, and interact with other people on a topic as fun as this, the more stuff I get to take. I can learn more silly words, I can say things that I wouldnt have been able to convey,

I can be closer to myself. That, and you can too.

The more I grow, the more you see.

I think thats pretty cool.

Anywho, that’s all for now. I hope my reasoning sufficed!

(and this post too ofc, I hope you enjoyed this post too :))

A bit shorter than I wanna yap for but can you blame me? I should have been asleep 3 hours ago I HAVE A LECTURE SOON.

Honestly, I still have a lot to say, even more photos I was supposed to use this post, but I’ll leave them for next post. Hopefully, if I can finish enough work this week, Ill try pushing out a post early this week. I want to :p.

Anywho, for this week’s music rec, im sure you already know him but TEMPOREX is AWESOME!

I havent delved into his stuff like I wanna yet, but I’ve been listening to albums on the way to uni, so theres a HIGH chance I’ll have listened to an album or two this week. Ive listened to a couple of random tracks for now, Nice Boys, Hi, and Dont Care mainly. I think he captures the night wander feeling so beautifully, its like a genuine out of body experience with his music.

Out of body might be the wrong term though. More like, different body?

Cant be bothered to rehash that ordeal tbh, I STILL HAVE THE LECTURE TMR. If you want more context on what I mean by that, go read the Night wander post.

(YEAH, YOUR GETTING READING HOMEWORK TODAY TOO >:))

Go do that, or listen to temporex, or both, or none. Up to you.

Love you. Goodnight :).