My god, we’re finally done with exams.

First off, let me just say im really happy that its finally over. Genuinely, I cant emphasize how good it is to have gotten that off of my back, screw both of those exams.

The physics exam was nothing out of the ordinary, not a shock to the system or anything, but for some reason the math exam was LEAGUES harder??????

Im not sure why, I like math a lot more than ive ever liked physics and I was sure it would go better, but I had to skip some of the 2 mark parts in the math exam to keep up and get to the parts I knew, whereas the physics was done with 10 minutes to spare. Im sure I passed both of them (though Id be lying if I didnt say I was a bit worried about the math exam), still weird how much of a discrepency there was.

They were both 2 hours and 30 minutes if you were wondering, with half an hour to submit the writing youd have done (its an at home exam), so 3 hours total, both at 9 in the morning. The setup on my end leading up to each exam was relatively the same too, id study the whole day b4hand and sleep early to wake up early, shower, hit an energy drink and then continue revising. Then the exam starts.

I also DEFINETELY had too many energy drinks in one week, 4 cannot be healthy even if it was to keep me on track for the exams, but at least I dont have to worry about that anymore.

I can finally get back to my month long wish to juice up on diet lemonade,

I also have a breezy TWELVE DAYS to find a new place to live :D.

Probably less, if I wanna move all my stuff myself and not pay the prices id have to pay for a man in a van or moving company, INCLUDING buying a case to haul my piano with, but im sure itll be fine.

A lot of reviews online seem to trust unipol, and ill be checking out that place of theirs tomorrow. If all goes well, I could have all my stuff in the other building by next week, assuming the place is good :’).

Pray for me. Ive warming up to having housemates, but I really need the place to be clean, otherwise ill throw myself off the nearest cliff before I even leave the building. The place is sorta far from here (still a good location though) so it BETTER be worth it.

Anyways, I finally got around to finishing deltarune chapter 4, and I loved every second of it. I have to say, the bossfight was honestly great but not even CLOSE to the best part. The ralsei breakdown though, that shit was fun >:).

…in the sense that it was very emotional, I did NOT enjoy seeing ralsei cry, my boy deserves better >:l. Its still a hell of a testament to how much hes grown since chapter one, but he deserves some rest.

Kris is still my favorite but damn is he a close second.

Also, found a really cool deltarune animation a couple of days ago, check it out.

https://youtu.be/eHoxCQ145e8?si=hsq9sKlSJiTYok0q

ITS SO EXPRESSIVE, I love it to pieces its way too good. The colors alone make me wanna eat the screen but the way kris is posed on top of the burning heart is INSANE, SERIOUSLY.

HES SO BOUNCY, but also has so much WEIGHT. Its really good :p.

I also played another game id heard about a while back called “he fucked the girl out of me”. Id heard about it from a video essayist months ago and it never quite left my mind, and for one reason or another I finally decided to try it out.

It was…

It was a lot.

You should know before looking into it that it covers heavy themes of sexual assault and exploitation, it gets pretty crude. But for all its heavy topics, I found it to be one of the most humane breakdowns ive ever seen in media.

You see in a lot of media whenever a character breaks down in some way, they usually get in one hell of a rut, only to pick themselves back up again after some help from friends or some words of wisdom. It takes “a while”, sure. But before you know it their back on their feet, ready to fight evil once again. Theyll remember their loss, looking back at what they lost and what it meant to them from time to time, but still quite easily move on in the end.

Think literally any shonen anime, take your pick. They all tackle it similarly.

(admittedely comparing shonen anime to this is setting the bar way too low, but it illustrates the point quite well :0)

With media like this though, its viscerally human, especially given that its not written with any express purpose to entertain an audience. When something traumatic occurs, its almost never just “a rut” to get over. Hell, most times you dont get the pleasure of being mopey to begin with, to genuinely breakdown over something impactful. It just happens, and it fucks with you.

Your uncomfortable, you dont like it, it feels like shit but theres nothing that can be done. Nobody to be with you throughout it, no reprieve. It just is.

And then, once its over, no breath of fresh air either.

You just feel empty, unable to think straight. Your stuck in neverland, dissociating from the experience in an attempt run from it, likely what youd already done earlier, but that state of mind tends to linger.

Thats partly what the game explores, through the semi autobiographcal lens the author decides to give us into her experience in sex work, and the one particular incident that felt like it fucked the girl out of her, and how it changed the her. Its pretty painful, but it seems the author has moved on from the events of the story, at least partially, and im happy for that.

If your by any means able to stomach that sort of thing, and are in a good place to do so, feel free to check the game out and see what you get from it. Its free on steam and itch.io, and takes less than a couple of hours to complete. Just make sure you can stomach it.

And thats all ive really got in me for now. Still though, I do have some really cool student films from a certain someone for you to check out on the way out.

This ones about a shitty friend,

https://youtu.be/NZLFsfSmrMI?si=TsUkP5FH42fQj0cv

And this ones about spooky housemates,

Im just gonna keep the full video on the post as is, because I at least want you to see the art, even if you dont plan on watching.

Again, I dont know how people do this, but the COLOURS ON THESE PROJECTS? ARE INSAAAAANE.

I wanna take big bite out of all of it, its gorgeous.

And particularly with Luna, all of her animations are so goddamn expressive, not unlike the deltarune animation, but even moreso. Its really fun to watch characters do the most mundane actions, its really pleasent.

SO GO WATCH THEM >:].

Well, that it for now. Again, thanks for reading, have a great rest of your week :).

Im off to go break down a whole chicken. Wish me luck.